milkless

by ghost in the addict

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© 2014 ghost in the addict

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released 11 July 2014

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music and lyrics by john spinelli.
written, arranged, performed, and
produced by john spinelli.

mixed by jordan witham and john spinelli.
mastered by thewhiteshadow.

album artwork created by john spinelli and laura vignola.

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Track Name: hemophiliac
she said she'd be my heroin
so i unlocked the door and let her in
someone in the room said "i want more"
shots rang out as i ran for the door
nothing stops the bleeding

why did you leave me lying there?
everyone around just stood and stared
at blood stains on the carpet where i laid
every time i scream you look away
nothing stops the bleeding
Track Name: by your side
i'm under the weather but i'm not sick
i'm a candle with a fucked up wick
i don't know just where i'm going
but you're welcome to come with me
maybe we can find a place where we can finally be free

you tell me that you can't sleep at night
you tell me that your nightmares come to life
when you just can't keep it all inside... i'll arrive
i'll be by your side

i know what keeps you up at night
all the demons you keep inside
all the monsters under your bed
are they there or in your head?
either way... i think that i know how you're feeling
you're all alone

you tell me that you can't sleep at night
you tell me that your nightmares come to life
when you just can't keep it all inside... i'll arrive
i'll be by your side

you can't sleep so you call me on the phone
i talk to you so you don't feel alone
i wish that i could be there and be yours to keep
but all i can do is sing you to sleep

you tell me that you can't sleep at night
you tell me that your nightmares come to life
when you just can't keep it all inside... i'll arrive
i'll be by your side
Track Name: milk
milk in a saucer on the floor
she's all dolled up, down on all fours
i'm so down
she's going down on my luck
angels cover their eyes every time we fuck

let's go insane
let's make it rain tonight

puts her eyebrows on in the rearviewmirror
everything gets hazy as it becomes clear
i'm so down
she's going down and i'm out
angels shiver as we kiss and twist and shout

let's go insane
let's make it rain tonight
Track Name: oyasumi
all your children have gone insane
dilated and laughing at the rain
you can find us downstairs being strange
in the basement where it rains all night

you can find us lost in-between
the innocent and the obscene
i cut myself and bleed your name
in the basement where it rains all night

her backmasked dreams...
they torture me perfectly
our secrets keep but i can't sleep
we've met but we don't meet
why won't you tell me the rest of the story?
my chest is screaming your name as you're leaving forever
Track Name: ruined
wait... where did you go?
i went walking home alone
why can't you see what's happening to me?
too fucked up to even care
when the stitches start to tear
suddenly i'm bleeding everywhere

wait... i'm all alone
i got lost on my way home
just for once why can't you see that it's killing me?
i tried to hide it
but everything is ruined here

where do you think it's gone?
slipped through cracks in the floor?
it came undone so long ago
i just thought that you should know tonight
before i blow out the lights

wait... i'm all alone
i got lost on my way home
just for once why can't you see that it's killing me?
i tried to hide it
but i can't fight it
but everything is ruined here

wait for me
i can't make it on my own
i'll die out here alone
every time that i feel okay
somehow the feeling slips away
i don't know if i'll be alright
i might not make it through the night
Track Name: aixyhpsa
i tried to tell you way back then
and now the walls are all closing in
i've got some matches and some gasoline
set it on fire and dream another dream
i can't breathe
Track Name: the most beautiful scar
ghosts are swimming in my veins
the bathroom mirror looks so strange
a face i barely recognize
stares back at me with vacant eyes

why can't you see i'm all alone?
playing with fire cause no one's home
i tried to tell you for so long
that there was something wrong

i wish you'd show me who you are
it hurts at first but it leaves the most beautiful scar
i still remember every regret
i can't remember to forget

why can't you see i'm all alone?
playing with fire cause no one's home
i tried to tell you for so long
that there was something wrong

all these thought spinning inside my head
sometimes i feel like i'd feel better dead
everyone is looking but they can't see
i'd hate myself if i were me

why can't you see i'm all alone?
playing with fire cause no one's home
i tried to tell you for so long
i doubt you even hear the fucking words to this song
no matter what i do or say
i just can't get away
i run but it follows me
i just want to get free
Track Name: untitled
your dad showed us his .45
when i stayed at your house one night
you fell asleep and i went to the shed
wondering what it's like to be dead
Track Name: nothing left
wandering the world confused
i got lost... that's where i found you
scattered all across the floor
in a million broken pieces, fucked and sore
too fucked up to care anymore
you want to disappear
i can see it in your eyes
i know too well all the reasons why
why you run away

it's cold in here
it's cold like death
i'd start a fire but there is nothing left
nothing left for me to burn

the blackest sheep...
the family's secret shame
those who can't be tamed are most beautiful of all
i love your every blister, cut, and bruise
we both have nothing left to lose
cause we threw it all away
you're beautiful, too young to die
i know too well all the reasons why
why you run away

it's cold in here
it's cold like death
i'd start a fire but there is nothing left
nothing left for me to burn
Track Name: never going home again
i saw you standing there
looking so lost and scared
i asked "are you okay?"
you looked at your feet and said
"i'm never going home again"

you said "i'd rather die"
and then you started to cry
i didn't know what to do
so i stood there and cried with you
"i'm never going home again"
Track Name: so far away
let's leave this place
it's a disgrace that they can keep us here
i'm not afraid
if you're afraid... i'll make the way for you

so far away... where no one knows your name
so far away... where no one recognizes your face
so far away... where we can start again
i'll meet you at the end

i just don't care if they all stare
i don't have much to hide
just take my hand and understand
that we are leaving here

so far away... where no one knows your name
so far away... where no one recognizes your face
so far away... where we can start again
i'll meet you at the end

so far away...
Track Name: drown the sun
let's start a fire
and burn this whole place down
even though we tried
just look at what they've done
drown the sun

let's get out of here
these walls are closing in
they built this house to break
we'll never be like them
just look what they've done
drown the sun
Track Name: dear you
i can feel your eyes piercing my skin
you're looking but you can't see in
i'm hidden somewhere deep inside
i might not make it out alive
but at least in here i am my own
i'll go alone

i'm tired of hiding this from you
but i don't know what else to do
every word that goes unsaid
starts a fire inside my head
and i don't know just how to put it out
i'm all burned out

i can still remember why i had to leave
your love was suffocating
i just couldn't breathe
when i look behind me i don't like what i see
all the fucked up parts of you are now a part of me

i sit here staring at the wall
trying so hard not to think at all
but bit by bit it turns to shit
thoughts creep in and i forget
what it is that i came here to do
and i blame you


i can still remember why i had to leave
your love was suffocating
i just couldn't breathe
when i look behind me i don't like what i see
all the fucked up parts of you are now a part of me

one last thing before i drift into the dream...
it might not have meant much to to you
to me it was everything
Track Name: carved into my arm
it's me... waiting here for you to take me home
waiting for you to tell me i'm not alone
but you don't say a word
it's me... sitting here bleeding on the floor
staring at the name that i adore
carved into my arm
i don't know what else to do
every thought i think is of you
until i'm insane

it's me... doused in heroin to numb the taste
of the disappointed look on your face
that nothing can erase
it's me... the one who you once glued to your chest
the boy who loved more than all the rest
bleeding all alone
i don't know what else to do
every thought i think is of you
until i'm insane